No proposal NWO-nano
Finally I decided not to send my nanoelectromechanical proposal for national NWO-nano granting tour. I feel guilty about this, and reckon that the decision is wrong. I have a set of nice clear ideas that wait to be explored for common good, and I would be a right person for this research. I think I would be able to write a sucsessful grant application on the topic.
The reasons I do not do this are mostly psycological. The competition has a set of scary rules seemingly requiring immediate utilization of the research in a form of Taiwan-made gadgets( while still supporting Dutch economy). If literally read, the rules forbid any theoretical research. My colleagues at the department were hesitant to endorse and/or support my ideas and did not propose any collaboration. As I wrote, I have recently had a depression wave and thus had no desire to work.
I understand little relevance of all these factors. If I only had an extra week or perhaps two to work on the proposal and gain self-confidence needed… Ok, perhaps I can use the material for the next grant round.
